Sunday
I feel like I grow every day-in the spiritual, mental, and emotional sense. :) I learn more about myself, and others around me. I think that I have struggled ever since I was little with the thought that I was the most important person in the world. Now, don't think me conceited just yet. Think about it. When you were little, the world revolved around you-not because you necessarily had such a grand sense of self, but because that was the only way you could explain the world around you. Selfishness stems from this theory. When we never can get that the world is much bigger than just us, we keep thinking that we are the most important, and that includes what we want. I thought that I beat this demon long ago, but recently had to come to terms with the fact that I had not. A friend was simply trying to share their feelings with me, and I made it all aobut me. How selfish is that? Could it be that not everything is about me? It was a pretty humbling experience. They brought it to my attention with grace and kindness that always accompanies their correspondence, and for that I am greatful. I realize that God is working in my life, helping to mold me into the person He wants me to be, and He is using people around me as His instruments. I am not even close, and there are many set backs, but I think that the fact that I recognize it, and try to change my thoughts and actions is enough for Him. I sure hope it is. I think it can get discouraging when we think of how far we have to go to perfection, but then I think of what God's word says. We are made perfect by the blood of Jesus. Just think about that for a minute. I am perfect-not because I have all the answers, or because I always say the right things (definitely not), but because God wants me to be with Him so much that He died for me. I am a messed up human being- we all are. But, we have salvation because we are so loved! Thank you, God! You are so awesome. Help me to be not only satisfied with you, but to be overjoyed with you. Help us to all see through your eyes, and not our little, selfish, human eyes.
