thoughts to the universe

Why was it so hard with us? It should have been so easy-like breathing. I was so in love with the thought of him. We were perfect for each other. Why couldn't we make it work? Is there someone out there who it will work with? Will I ever fall in love? I want so much to have a family. I ache for it. After Dad left us, I thought I would never want to be with someone. If you get too close to someone then they can really hurt you. I realize that maybe it's worth the risk. God, I know you must get tired of my whining. I realize that you are so much more than I deserve, and by your grace, I have you with me every day, waiting to hold me in your arms one day. God, I know that is such a gift, and yet I know that because you were here and experienced the loneliness of being man for yourself that you know how much we want to be held and touched and kissed and loved here on earth as well. You may not have been a woman when you came to this earth, but you made me in your image, and so I know that all of what I am is inside you as well. You know the ache of a woman to be held by a man. You know that it's not good for us to be alone. You know the ache of a woman to hold her baby in her arms. You know the fears that we carry. I try to give them to you. Please help me. Give me your peace.